She won’t move to Florida. She said that it’s too much for
her. I can’t move there. Not yet anyways. I can when I retire, but that is at
least 10 more years away. I sacrificed living in WA for my kids. I just moved,
and I’m super happy here!
I, I just feel so helpless. She lives in Hawaii without a
husband to help/emotionally support her. She is supporting my brother
financially, and caring for her mother; my 91 year old grandmother. Her vision
is failing her; she will most likely lose the ability to drive next year, and
she is not 20 anymore. Someone needs to take care of her while she
is taking care of others.
I want to help her, but I am so far away. I feel as if my
hands are tied. I do what I can, but I feel it’s not enough. I owe her so much.
Sure I know the things I did as a kid. I have guilt. I used
to have shame, but within my personal growth, I have moved past that part of
me.
In my heart of hearts… I truly want to help her. Help her move. Help with her
legal “stuff”. Help her with my grandma. Cook for her. Make sure that her house
is clean.
She is a strong woman, but I’m worried about her. She has alienated herself from everyone. Except her faith. I hope that
whatever she is going through, she is able to find the strength to make it
through it. I can and will do whatever I can from over here on the East Coast. I love you mom!
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