I thought I was handling things okay. Perhaps I’m in denial, okay, yes, I am in denial!
I’m feeling exhausted. I need a break! I want a vacation,
but am going to hold out, since I am going to have a break in September when I get my surgery; 4–6-week
break. Not how I want a break, but this will be a forced opportunity for me to
slow down and recharge my battery.
I realized yesterday that I am tired, really... tired! Discombobulated
and not in my element. Moving from one Airbnb to another is not ideal!
I have been eating my feelings for weeks now, and my body is
starting to change due to my horrible eating habits catching up to me.
Honestly, I know I can change that, but right now as much effort as I give it.
I just don’t want too. Stress eating is my excuse and I’m kind of enjoying it.
Not enjoying the weight I’ve put on, but in the end, I will lose it again. I
just need things to smooth out. I need my home to be finished being built
PLEASE!
