Magical, unwinding gravitational pull

For so many years, most my adult “responsible” life, I feel as if I am following my parent’s words of wisdom. You know the nagging voices of… work hard and do whatever you need to do to make a living and then retire comfortably. BUT something has shifted recently, and my soul has me yearning for living life with passion, love, unbounding joy and living my true self. Loving what I do, day in and day out. Here’s the challenge. What is it? What does that look like? I really don’t know, but I want too!

I feel as if I am being pulled forward and just being where I am “right now” … more so of the awareness of where I am, has become painful, emotional and yet it fuels my fire to explore what that means all at the same time. The opposition is my old, yet evolving self … who has that nagging voice and the fight or flight feeling of being scared. All I can say is, I strongly and wholeheartedly feel a conscience shift and I continue to remind myself that it’s time for me to LIVE, LOVE and BE FREE! No longer bound to the chains of the old patterns that keep me unhappy. Not in a negative way, just not living life to it’s fullest most magical and its unlimited energy!

I remember a time… long period of my life where I wore a mask, alcohol, drugs and all those crutches allowed me to “deal” with things and endure life’s challenges, but in the past 10 years of my NSA journey, I can happily say that the old negative patterns have fallen to the wayside and I no longer think, nor want to clutter my mind and soul with crap!  

Please hear my voice expressing my gratitude and asking that you unveil the path that I am to follow. Lead the way, and I will continue to trust the process.

Love and Light

2016 -2017 Where did the time go?

I was just getting back into blogging again, and boom! Things change again. I guess it goes to show, how you can always count on change. Don’t get comfortable. Honestly, comfortable isn’t my thing anyway. I like to expand and grow as much as I can!

In the beginning of 2016, I was bored, hated my boss, my job and the energy that surround my professional surroundings. Then in July, I quit my job… best thing I ever did since moving to Miami.

August, I shifted things around and continued to work on the house and myself. Oh, and I committed to running a 10k… last time I committed to running, I injured myself, so I was a bit hesitant. After all, I wasn’t getting any younger.

September, started a new job… thank god for Law of Attraction! But a lesson in being careful what you ask for. Honestly, I’m not kidding anyone… I love my job! I especially love the environment and the integrity of the company and all the people who are here.

October, was a whirlwind of changes. New job, training hard, and still trying to find balance.

November, successfully ran my 10k and kicked ass! I was so motivated by the run, that I felt that I needed to up my anti. So, I was challenged to participate in the Spartan Races. So, I said… yes!

And from there life was just swept away. New job which I am absolutely in love with. Honestly, when you set your sight on what you want… it’s amazing how the universe goes to work for you. Of course, you must keep it within your sights all the same, but I couldn’t’ve asked for a more perfect job… ever! It was challenging… no it was seemingly impossible at first. Now in hindsight, all is better. I love the team that I’ve hired, and the changes we all have implemented in creating a free flow environment for my Accounting office.

I’ve completed the Spartan Race. I ranked 4^th in my age group for the heat I was in. Impressed with myself. I know that Josh, my incredible partner could’ve finished sooner as I slowed him down, but I can say that I loved it, and will probably do it again next year! Learned a few things, and will apply those next time.

Here we are in June. Life is slowing down at the office. I am finally at a point where I’ve claimed my weekends and evenings back. Finding balance between work and personal has become a thing in my present. It’s just amazing to me to take a step back, breathe and discover how it’s June. OMG, where did the time fly?

I hope to continue to blog, now that life has slowed down!

Love and Light

How did I do it?

Life was so busy while I was working. Quite honestly, I'm not sure how I did it.

Now life seems so much more quiet and still. The gift of having the time to concentrate on me is going to be remarkable. I am so excited to be home to handle the things that need to be taken care of; neglected really.

Thank you for the courage to take a stand for myself and how others were treating me. I wholeheartedly knew I deserved better, but the financial scarcity kept me there. Thank you for allowing me to claim my power back and to take charge of myself and my boundaries.

This next chapter of my life is going to be remarkable!

Thank you!!!

I am so grateful for my life’s experiences. This year has been a year of change for me. To have been where I was and to be where I am is something I cannot understand but I know that GOD has his plan for me. Thanks to those who hated me, I am now a stronger person.. Thanks to those who loved me, my heart has grown fonder.. Thanks to those who envied me, my self-esteem grew stronger.. Thanks to those who cared, you made me feel important.. Thanks to those who entered my life, you made me who I am today.. Thanks to those who left, it made me realize that nothing lasts forever.. May GOD bless you and all in your life!

Yes, yes, yes!

Breathe! Yes breathe….. -Finally a moment where life’s clutter is no longer in my way. My brain feels as if it’s finally clearing out the clutter of the crap I have been dealing with since my cowardly ex husband left without notice back in July. He has actually done me a life saving favor and I am thankful for the twist and the turns of how I arrived here today.
Although not the circumstances I would have ever dreamed of in a million years… I am truly thankful for the situation, as it has really opened my eyes to the true power I have within “me”

Clearing the clutter of the shit that kept me up at night and restless during the day has brought a new perspective of what busy really means to me. Busy is the way society has become and the drive that makes most of us just want more. More what? Materialism? Acceptance? A bigger Ego? Pride? What does busy mean to you?
I feel as if my life is finally starting to quiet down. Yes there is a lot still left to do but I have been getting organized and I feel better about all of it! My divorce, my unlawful detainer lawsuit to remove my tenants who are not paying rent, my finances, my debt and my life in general with the daily challenges I face just being a single mother. BUT I got to say…..I am determined to overcome all of those challenges that come my way. Yes there have been lots and for the first time in the history of my life, I feel as if I am the most powerful and driven woman that I know. I will NOT allow all those things or anything get in my way.
Don’t get me wrong…. Some days I am down but I, in time always pick myself up and move on. Sometimes those breaking moments are what I require for my own clarity. Clarity of the bigger picture here on this journey of where I am going. I am so excited as to the outcome after all of this turmoil. AND I just have to give myself a BIG kudos to me for being the person I am.
For quite sometime now, I have used coping mechanisms to get by and one day sometime ago I realized that I am doing a disservice to myself by not allowing myself to “FEEL IT” Coping skills are great if you want to put off your feelings or shall I say stuff them. AND I vowed sometime last year when I allowed all those hurtful feelings to come up, I was no longer going to live in the shadows of the fear of feeling something bad. I am going to cry, and get angry and laugh too. With the good comes the bad. It’s all part of this life and the balance of how it all works together. Like Ying and Yang.

Ahhh… the breath is so refreshing and calming to ones persona. Clarity is nice and having a sense of calm is very healing for me. It’s my time to remember the things that I want for myself. To have a purpose, to feel free from within, to just be me!

I love that I am here and it’s fall. The beauty of the leaves turning and the new season is vastly approaching. It’s refreshing to me as it’s a sense of a new beginning. Although I have had many of those, I truly feel as this one is the most healing experiences that I have ever encountered in my existence of being on this planet. Mother earth and the universe are amazing! Thank you for my place on this abundant earth.

I am in love with my life, and my children are amazing people who have been a huge blessing to me. We say that children are so abruptly honest and sometimes cruel but I am fortunate to have the 2 most wonderful boys that accept me for who I am! AND I accept them for who they are and the mistakes they make along the way as I know that this is how they learn. We all do… well maybe not all of us but those that are open and ready will see the lesson and change the course along the way.

Live life to the fullest because you never know what is to come your way. Never depend on others as they control what they want and always love yourself for who you are. Live in the moment and love the journey. The lessons we encounter are all part of the connection we have to each other and everything.

Thank you for everything, life and its lessons are truly amazing!!!!!!!!