Why bother!

Its not doing me any good,  so I realized why bother!

It is time to flip the switch! Sooo, what do I want!

• My reconciliations are falling into place effortlessly.  
• Edits for the changes were an easy process. 
• Everything is magically fall into place with payroll. 
• Everyone's open enrollments are in before the deadline.
• SOP's are finished and we're easily implemented. 
• Waking up on my terms
• Working in the garden and yard at my leisure
• Having the time and space to schedule my day on my terms!
• Time to cook better planned meals
• Spend more time with Roux and the kitties

I've gone through and finalized a shit ton with this migration. It's amazing at how many errors still exist in the system. The good news is, I'm sure this is the last one. Truth be told, I didn't even know it existed, until now. 

Recognizing to remember to give myself credit for all the hard work. Every day, we inch a little bit closer and someday soon, everything will be wrapped up!

Remembering to love me! My mind and my soul. I'm sorry I've been ignoring you for sometime now. I am so sorry! Recognizing where I am, and where I want to go. So I'm flipping this switch to change my priorities and structure. NOW!

Why did I do that?

I allowed myself to have a long period; lapse in judgement of bending the real truth of the matter. Yet, the real honesty of that statement is… I allowed it! I am in charge of my actions. I am in charge of knowing how to say no and stop myself from doing something that I wholeheartedly know is bad for me. Yet I did it any ways. I vow to no longer partake in that behavior, not only in a mind, body, and soul decision, but mainly because it goes against my principles and I felt so guilty after the fact. I felt so out of control and yet I wanted more. That’s the thing about addiction… it grabs ahold of you and doesn’t give a shit about your feelings, or your beliefs. I am in control! I am BACK in control and I have taken a vow to never, ever let that lapse in judgement happen again. Goes to show that even 20 years ago when I first made that vow… anything can happen if you allow it. Here I am again. Fuck that! Fuck you for allowing that to happen again. Not just once, but for an entire year! OMG WTF… Okay pity party is over!

Thank you for the recognition of the awareness in knowing that you are in charge… yes YOU are in charge. Refuel, and continue to look forward in loving your mind, body, and soul!