Okay, I'm done!

I realize that I’m done. I just cannot do this anymore. No, correction, I don’t WANT to do this anymore. I feel that as my desire grows stronger to feed my soul, the path is becoming clearer on what decisions need to be made!

The driving force to become wealthy has served me well, but it no longer does! I am so grateful for everything that is in my life. I have worked hard and sacrificed so much to get here today! I’m not going to take all the credit though… my husband worked just as hard as I did. We are so blessed for everything in our life! Our biggest goal of all is being 100% debt free! Yeeeees, THANK YOU!!!!

Feeding my soul! That is my new path. Well, truth be told, it has been by path for some time, but I keep FINDING detours! I’m still not sure what feeding my soul looks like, but as I continue to use my plant teacher, I feel that I am shown more of the path. I’m discovering my creativity is bubbling up more. I find that I am being led back to the things I miss doing. Things that I enjoy!

Magical, unwinding gravitational pull

For so many years, most my adult “responsible” life, I feel as if I am following my parent’s words of wisdom. You know the nagging voices of… work hard and do whatever you need to do to make a living and then retire comfortably. BUT something has shifted recently, and my soul has me yearning for living life with passion, love, unbounding joy and living my true self. Loving what I do, day in and day out. Here’s the challenge. What is it? What does that look like? I really don’t know, but I want too!

I feel as if I am being pulled forward and just being where I am “right now” … more so of the awareness of where I am, has become painful, emotional and yet it fuels my fire to explore what that means all at the same time. The opposition is my old, yet evolving self … who has that nagging voice and the fight or flight feeling of being scared. All I can say is, I strongly and wholeheartedly feel a conscience shift and I continue to remind myself that it’s time for me to LIVE, LOVE and BE FREE! No longer bound to the chains of the old patterns that keep me unhappy. Not in a negative way, just not living life to it’s fullest most magical and its unlimited energy!

I remember a time… long period of my life where I wore a mask, alcohol, drugs and all those crutches allowed me to “deal” with things and endure life’s challenges, but in the past 10 years of my NSA journey, I can happily say that the old negative patterns have fallen to the wayside and I no longer think, nor want to clutter my mind and soul with crap!  

Please hear my voice expressing my gratitude and asking that you unveil the path that I am to follow. Lead the way, and I will continue to trust the process.

Love and Light