Falling apart with total anxiety!

I feel that I just can’t hold it together anymore. It'll be the wrong person at the wrong time and I'm going to go off like a bomb!

I feel like a released balloon that is flying around, out of control. All I feel is anxiety and anger! So much anger! Not rage, just frustration at the timeline of things. 

I want to cry, but when I try to allow things to be, I have nothing! I feel like Cameron Diaz in the movie, the holiday! I steal moments when a single tear is shed, but nothing more than that! WTF! I’m sick of this shit. Totally on auto pilot. I’m at the finish line, but this time, it’s a cliffhanger and I’m barely hanging on!

I have many moments of anxiety where I just cannot get a deep breath. I have to stop, touch the energy that is in my chest and breathe. I feel like I need to STOP!

Still have no idea how to run payroll, but really with everything that is going on… taking it day by day. I cannot think any further than that. Just too much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cannot believe how much I have allowed this situation to sacrifice my boundaries! OMG!

Please allow me to have the strength to just make it through the next few weeks. I’m almost there!