I found myself criticizing myself on repeating behaviors that I KNOW I’ve mentioned before. I dare say that I’ve probably mentioned it a FEW times. So, I thought WTF why, do I keep allowing myself to fall victim of this behavior again. Then I realized I needed to stop beating myself up! Just acknowledge the behavior, forgive yourself and then move on.
I cannot help myself; I keep finding myself gravitating to wanting to understand why I keep getting back here. AGAIN!!! Then it dawned on me. I’m changing and as I change, the “deep” old patterns find their way to slip in. BUT and this is a BIG ONE… I can recognize that my awareness of these patterns is happening quicker and that is due to my personal growth. Fuck you to the old patterns, I got you and I want to take a moment to recognize my growth. I also want to recognize that in time, these patterns will continue to fade and eventually be replaced with a new behavior. Thank you for opening my eyes sooner. Thank you for life’s lessons and thank you to me! I am so grateful!
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