Sharing my JOURNEY....

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

According to OSHO... am I a lion or a camel???

Does it ever just feel like your floating through life? Not really taking certain actions by growth but just the day by day stuff that you would normally be doing…?

Living life day by day as each challenge comes and goes.

Making decisions based on your current level of awareness and power… Well I have a certain attachment that has a crutch that hinders me from dealing with my life ~versus~ cope-ing.

Why must I be so weak to give in? Someone once suggested that maybe it’s the attachment to someone who I loved very deeply, someone who gave me the security in a relationship with love and gratitude.

I feel as if my life has been a roller coaster going up and down and never really leveling out. I desire the challenges that come with dealing with it! I’m ready to play on a level playing field. Live LIFE! Just PLAY HARD!!!

My strength goes deep and I feel as if I need to make some changes.

Why because it alters my perception… maybe energizing but not healthy.

I do my part in being conscience of Mother Earth and my connection to what’s “GOOD”

Good for me, for you, and the others who are also connected.

IT’S all about purging… clearing the clutter… what now?

Oh yes it’s time…. I feel it burning… the desire to quit and reset the button. To start over

I have started over… so many times. I’m done! AND this time it’s going to be something big.

Something that goes deep: deep down to the core of my being and allows me to be here and now in every moment forward.

Meditate, meditate, meditate this is my challenge. To sit still and quiet…My brain just goes and goes and goes and then it just takes over and it’s over. This time it’s different. I’m ready to stop the cycle.

I did it in 2000 and I’ll do it again. But this time instead of doing it for someone else, I’m doing it for me.

I am grateful for that is all in my life, my awareness’s, and the power to be different.


Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Slowwwwwwwing dowwwwwwwn!

I never realized how much of a warp speed I was going until I arrived here in Hawaii and was able to slow down and take it easy!

Thank you god for providing this wonderful trip for us!

We have definitely made some most memorable memories and have seen the most beautiful sights.

We are enjoying every second we have here on the beautiful island. Time with family and friends have made this trip the best!

Feels good to be home again!

Here in Hawaii with the boys!

These are all North Shore pictures..... just a few favorites

Check out this tree! The colors are so beautiful!

Our new baby friend! The kids wanna keep the gecko.
I say $25,000 fine if we get caught. -No way!

Me at the house getting ready for the beach

Having a beer or two!

Dude that is an Amazazing fish! See it on the right?
I thinks it's a rock fish????

Shark's Cove -North Shore Hawaii

The boys at Shark's Cove In North Shore Hawaii
It was kinda cold out of the water

Just me in Hawaii

We are having the most amazing time here in Hawaii on this trip. No drama, no traveling, and no tours. Just us and time to do whatever we want!