For so many years, most my adult “responsible” life, I feel as if I am following my parent’s words of wisdom. You know the nagging voices of… work hard and do whatever you need to do to make a living and then retire comfortably. BUT something has shifted recently, and my soul has me yearning for living life with passion, love, unbounding joy and living my true self. Loving what I do, day in and day out. Here’s the challenge. What is it? What does that look like? I really don’t know, but I want too!
I feel as if I am being pulled forward and just being where
I am “right now” … more so of the awareness of where I am, has become painful,
emotional and yet it fuels my fire to explore what that means all at the same
time. The opposition is my old, yet evolving self … who has that nagging voice
and the fight or flight feeling of being scared. All I can say is, I strongly
and wholeheartedly feel a conscience shift and I continue to remind myself that
it’s time for me to LIVE, LOVE and BE FREE! No longer bound to the chains of
the old patterns that keep me unhappy. Not in a negative way, just not living
life to it’s fullest most magical and its unlimited energy!
I remember a time… long period of my life where I wore a
mask, alcohol, drugs and all those crutches allowed me to “deal” with things
and endure life’s challenges, but in the past 10 years of my NSA journey, I can
happily say that the old negative patterns have fallen to the wayside and I no
longer think, nor want to clutter my mind and soul with crap!
Please hear my voice expressing my gratitude and asking that
you unveil the path that I am to follow. Lead the way, and I will continue to
trust the process.
Love and Light
Today’s beautiful spoken words; magical & eloquently written in sharing myself honestly in this snippet of time. It’s been awhile, I’m sorry for not expressing myself, not dancing magically for hours, and loving what is! You only get once chance. Treat “you” nicely with love and compassion. Be real! Be Honest! Be You! Exposed, Raw down to your core being. Yes!
Can you accept your body, your spirit, mind, & soul? I must
admit that I am learning to love myself. -Me! My mishaps, tribulations;
experiences that I could perceive differently. Positively accepting myself, the
journey of finding the lesson and celebrating those moments. Celebrating the
gratitude of all my blessings.
I must admit, I am SO grateful for my existence right at
this moment!!! Maybe its because I feel so very connected at this very moment! Thankful
for network care in full embodiment. “Soul-ley” Laughing, smiling, and feeling
joyous! Hmm, feels so good! -Thank you!
Rawness exposed in truth. I know the {70/30} {80/20 rule}; whichever
one it is. I must cut to a low natural sugar, cut a bit of carbs. I am at the
gym very regularly, very! (I am proud of the structured progress)… However, having
moderation with my diet & exercise, is the goal. Indulge for a day or 2 but
have limits on how long things go on for. Thank you for having awareness to ask
the question?
What specifically do you not love? For me, it’s my saddle
bags hips, thighs, back, arms, and shoulders. That’s a long list, but not all the
parts on my body. That means I do love others. Yes! Yes, this is true too! Why kind
of goals do you have for your body? Working hard at the gym, but diet is key!
Why do I feel such a strong desire to become skinnier? Not skinnier, no… leaner!
-I do have target areas!
I am in the process of finding my balance with food; testing
boundaries. My number 1 rule? I must not have a cabinet full of anything
processed, candy, toxic… you get my point. I wished everyone in the world would
too. Nope, not in this world. Laziness is a thing! For real! I live with a roommate
who has a shit ton of this crap in her cabinets. Thankful for the awareness
that my will power must always be in check. That conversation you play in your
mind. Tell myself what I believe it to be, willing it, into my world, my
existence!
What do you want? Isn’t that the question? Right now, it’s
that I am in the process of becoming fit & leaner. Creating the necessary
habits and structuring the plan of action. Having balance at the gym with
lifting & toning; rotating weeks. Food! --I’m close! 17% body fat is my goal
and I have 7% left to go. My diet needs to get into check. That will be the
only way for me to reach this goal.
My mindset is shifting. Asking questions; real questions. What
will it take to make that a reality? Will Power, Drive, Ambition, Mistakes
& Progress in learning to love wholeheartedly. Having compassion, love, and
joy in every day at every moment.
I want to be wholeheartedly happy! With everything! Is that
possible? Can you dream it into your world? Believe it to already to exist. For
me, I believe that documenting your desires, sends it into the universe where the
greatest power and forces begin. Churning, and spinning the world around
everything in energy! Love Gratitude and an outlook on life that is enlightening
and magical! -Again, Thank you!
With wishes in sending this in time and space. Setting my
desires free! -Thank you!
Small sacrifices in the decisions you make will impact everything moving forward.
Asheville is amazing! So, glad we decided to move out of
Florida. Too many in-differences My mindset is built on kindness, compassion, community,
and a good chuck of SoFlo is just cultured differently, that it’s not working
for us! So…
Here we are again. I’ve moved away for work and Jason is in
the old home until the transition is finished. It will be months before our
home is finished building. Amazing! We/I am so blessed to be building a house with
Jason. He is excited at the projects that are in the plan to build and create
landscaping. I am thankful our lives crossed paths. We were both so different when
we met. Progressed magically! I love the space that will be our new home. Built
with love, creativity, and imagination. Excited to be next to river; yes!
Floating down in the summer is thing here! Especially excited to be blessed
with lots of ideas of landscaping. I cannot wait to get started next Spring!
For now, we live in different states. We talk/video chat at
least 2 times a day; every day! I miss him tremendously! Chats are not the real
deal, but I’ll take it! Small sacrifice for the plan, ahead! Lots of miles
traveling back and forth between homes, but worth it! Blessed, so grateful for
the gift of prosperity & creativity. Thank you!
Measure what is important, make them a priority and stay
focused! Cheers!
