Sharing my JOURNEY....

Saturday, June 22, 2019

Finding Balance

Honestly, I didn’t take the traditional route in life by any means. I married young, had a baby before I was 18, survived an abusive relationship, divorced, married again, had another baby, became a widow, married again, divorced, and got married again and somehow in between all that, I found a way to become educated, and experienced in my field. I made it work; without entertaining excuses. There were low and high points where I felt as if I just wanted to quit, but I am a fighter and will never give up on something I am driven to do, or have my mind set on.

Now that my kids are gone, and I truly have an empty nest, and my career has been the biggest priority of my life. Afterall, that is what I have been working so hard for! Right? Ever since I moved to Florida, I have been so busy with life. My career has made a big impact on my free time, relationships, personal challenges with addiction and mind, body, soul balance.

I have tried and tried to find the “right” company to call my forever “career” home. The universe knows that I have bounced, and bounced around, fallen, picked myself up to keep fighting the good fight. I have seasons, just like everyone else. I am learning how to have balance and create time and space for myself. That has been a challenging thing to accomplish with all my responsibilities, desires within this space and time. Prioritizing in order to find balance has been something I have battled with for decades.

For the first time, I feel like I am getting balance to my life. I feel that I have finally found the company to call home; again in the HVAC field. A company who values me for the gifts I bring to the table. A company who is allowing me to run my department as I wish to do, without any interference. Of course, in the beginning, it was a challenge; again, bringing order as I did with the previous companies I had worked for, but the difference was... I had full control to really shine! But, here I go again… BALANCE. How the hell can I find and balance everything I want to do, to include ME. --Just recently, I have set a precedence on and for myself on a personal level. The difference this time is that setting boundaries within my career, scheduling and making it all fit in order to MAKE time. Sure, I will admit that I have become a bit obsessive on “me” time, but it feels good to stand up for my personal/professional balance. Making time and keeping those boundaries.

Thank you to the universe for hearing my desires. Combining the universal energy of the law of attraction and my focused energy and attention allowed the path to be set and become a new habit.


Friday, June 21, 2019

Getting Fit!

I have had gym memberships and worked with various personal trainers throughout my adult life. I thought I was fit, but as time went on… I allowed life to take over and I swayed away from the fitness aspect of my life. I heard that 40 was the magic number when things started to really drop, but it was like, a snap of the fingers and BOOM, I realized the switch was flipping on me; fast!

Back in 2016, I got this thing called “frozen shoulder” -I couldn’t lift my left arm in front of my body any higher than my shoulder, nor could I put on my own bra. It sucked and was extremely debilitating. I was scared that I would never have use of my arm as I normally did. Not to mention, my weight had creeped up to 160 pounds. BTW, that was my full-term pregnancy weight back in 1996. Holy shit! What was happening to me?

I went to an orthopedic surgeon to get professional help. It was the first time I had and hoped to ever have an injection. I hate anything that is considered a “drug”, let alone injecting it into my body! It was  necessary, due to the alternate method. So, I started physical therapy and hired a personal trainer to get my fat ass (for me) back into shape and become truly healthy. My mind, and soul was in good shape, but my body. OMG, NO!!!! I am right-hand dominant, therefore, I got frozen shoulder due to non-utilization of my left arm. That will never happen again! I won’t let it!

My personal trainer and I are still going strong. The fact is my weight fluctuates between 145-150, but I have dropped 6% body fat and have slimmed back down to a size 4. I have ran a few 10K’s, finished a Spartan race, and am now going for the trifecta in 2019. I am excited for that! Each race is different, but it consists of roughly 30+ obstacles, and each race is either 3, 9, or 12 miles in the mud. Talk about “beasting” it! I may have to utilize specialized shoes, but I now run roughly about 15 miles a week and spin a few days a week. Can you say obsessive! Yes, I will admit that, but I am okay with that. I am not addicted to drugs or enabling bad habits. Yeah, being in my forties has made for some challenges, and I have had to overcome some injuries, but you can try to push me down for a bit! I will rise to the occasion no matter what! Bring it bitch, I will show you, just how strong and determined I am! Honestly, grateful for my trainer, and my strong drive to succeed.

What a journey this has been! A journey that I am grateful for! To my well being in my mind, body and soul!

Thank you!

Thursday, June 20, 2019

Clarification

I had raised my children, and it was my turn to finish my education and start my career. I took a chance, and when I moved across country to Florida to start my career, I had no idea of the series of events that would take place.

I connected with a FL based company. Of course, it was in the HVAC field, and they desperately required a knowledgeable Controller. Therefore, I proceeded forward with an interview. Just so happens that they had a business partners in Seattle. That was convenient! In speaking with the owner of the company and he said, “Have you ever been to FL” “Why would you want to move here?” I, in that moment, didn’t understand why he would be asking me that, and I didn’t care. I wanted out of Cloudy, cold WA, and this was my “open door”. The interview was a success and an offer was presented, and I accepted. Therefore, I gave notice at my current employer, and away I went on my journey to FL. I drove there, it took 4 days. I love to drive, so the journey was fun.

When I arrived at my new job… OMG, what a mess! Luckily, my work ethic rose to the forefront and allowed me to shine; giving my job every bit if energy I had. I had to bring my “A” game in bringing my organization and standardization skills to this office. Honestly, the situation really consumed me, and at that time it was no big deal. I was here by myself; my family and home were back in Washington State. I could allow my job to take all my time. I did fly home a few times over the 6 months until my home sold, but the long and short of it is… my job consumed me. When I was hired, my job was to bring accuracy, to the accounting department, and implement policies, standardization and procedures. I was able to finalize those tasks, but unfortunately, that job wasn’t a good fit for me, and I left. It became a toxic environment and I had to make the choice of leaving before I secured employment with a new employer. A leap of faith!

With that experience, I realized (AGAIN) that in life, you must be careful what you ask for. I may have received the gift of moving to a sunnier/warmer location, and the career path that I excelled in, but that job soon became the steppingstone. A steppingstone to further clarification and in search of the “right employer” and the challenge in finding a new job.  

Think about what you want, ensure its crystal clear! Focus your energy, attention, and time on what you seek and let the universe unveil and work on the rest.

No time to stop!

Really? No time? That’s not true.

The truth is, I haven’t made time to blog. I have had higher priorities in my life, and quite honestly, I have been super busy living out in the real world. I have stopped and started to jot down a few sentences on a few topics, but it only got that far. Today is the day that I am officially on vacation, by myself and I am taking the time to go back to those topics and “catch up”. I am on a 11-hour flight… what better time to take that moment.

I made a commitment a long time ago to get back to blogging regularly, but I can see now, how unrealistic that was. I always start with good intentions, but that is where it stayed.

I will not make the statement that my situation will change to allow more time. I will say that I am on hiatus, and will get back to this eventually, but for now… I am focusing on higher priority things in my life. Things that are in my life, in this moment of time and space; I am choosing to be present in my life. This digital world is great, but I much prefer to be living and experiencing my life out in the world. I will check in from time to time, and maybe “catch up” again, but my priority is being out there, being me, and living in each and every moment, and experiencing all that I can!