I can remember a time, most my life really -- many, many years ago,
that I never breathed as if my life depended on it. Of course I breathe; breathing
is a natural unconscious behavior that happens without any effort. But, I never
truly breathed; deep consciously connected breathe-- taking in a breath and
really feeling the… movement, breath, and energy. I’ve felt glimpses when I was
working with a SRI facilitator, but at that moment in life… I was really in my
head thinking...
“Am I doing this right?”
“Is this what I’m supposed to be feeling?”
“What does she mean by feel the movement, breath,
and the energy will just follow”
For me, during this last gate, I learned that I am in denial. I’m denying
myself the deeper connection that my heart so desires. I’ve been telling myself
that I’m good. But, really I’ve discovered that I’m not. I’m listening to my
mind. -B-U-T- my heart desires are getting louder and louder; its starting to yell “stop running
away” --Face it bitch!
So, it was fate, and good for my awareness to attend the Monday SRI
workshop after the gate. It opened my perspective to understanding how
important SRI, truly is. Now to take that to the next level and put it into practice.
Whoa that is a bit scary for me. AND just writing this, I can feel the resistance. My mind trying to keep me comfortable. But this time, remembering to lead with my heart and
follow my intentions... I WILL keep this candle lit through all the future mind fuck and challenges.
Bring it on bitch, I’m pushing through this one!
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Today as my back was letting me know there is something going on, I did some more stage 1. How liberating it is to know that I can use my own body and breath to relieve the tension. Wahoo!
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